yeah well Colton just asked if i wanted to go to the movies with him&his friends and so i asked. mom was okay with it but dad just straight up NO. but he’s in a good mood all cheery and happy and talking to the dog…but no i cant go out have to be stuck in this fucking prison cell until i move out of this place…
so idk i dont like talking to Colton about all this shit bc im afraid he’ll be like wow your family is fucked up and then not even like me anymore idk its kinda stupid but i fear it. i mean i know i can trust him but still i just fear that. hmm okay. /:
oh yeah i forgot to mention about since im still grounded mom keeps bringing up the wreck and how its my fault that im stuck in this house. okay yes it was my fault bc i was driving. yes i understand i had to be grounded for a week. but 3? thats bullshit. and it’s over and its the past. i learned my lesson so lets just drop it. i told her that amd she flipped out on me about no i cant just forget about it blah blah blah. stfu…i swear…! sorry just thought bout that and figured id vent lol alright
theres so much on my mind but i just cant seem to put it on paper. i wanna go far away and never come back. im so happy with my friends but then mom has to just be a total bitch and ruin my happiness..then she blames it on my “changed attitude” yeah okay. i mean apparently im still supposed to be grounded? uh fuck that shit … its summer for the love of god and it will be over before i even know it :( let me enjoy my teenage years. i see Colton like everyday which i love(: he makes me so happy!! um i was supposed to go to the lake with Stephen and his family friday but because damn parents hate that family for some dumbass reason i didnt get to go :,( i havent been to the lake since the sixth grade…and im still waiting to go to magic springs!! mom keeps bugging me about this California trip so finally i looked up the shit on Facebook. i mean dont get me wrong im excited its just idk not my main priority right now and i dont want it to get here bc that means summers almost over. i really hope this thing between me&Colton isnt just a summer fling or I’ll be upset. i love his friends they are hilarious and amazingly the same as me&kendra!! hmm i just try to get through every day without going psycho on mom. dad is home for the next 10 days…goody. there is no way in hell that im staying in all these days. ugh yeah thats all i can think of right now. i love you tumblr(: i can just let all my emotions out!!
Soo just thinking..I wish I had more freedoms. I practically have to beg mom to let me go out on nights. Its dumb. Its summer!!! Let me be free and young and enjoy life. Don’t make me be home by 9.30 that’s stupid…let me spend my nights out on the town and spending the night with sierra and kendra! Ughhhhhhh :/
I wanna know that when you hang out with other girls you’ll still be thinking of me. I wanna know that you are mine and no one elses. I wanna know your true feelings for me. I wanna know that I am safe in your arms. I wanna know that I can trust you. I wanna know that you won’t purposely let me down. I just wanna know the truth<3
I have been awake since 4 this morning..ftw